now. some people in this world may enjoy themselves a tad bit of porn but not me.

in my opinion it is disgusting and i do not enjoy even a glimpse of it.

so, google images. thank you. all i wanted was a picture of a hair color to show someone what my hair looked like when i was a small child and i see women naked with their legs spread urging the camera forward.

now, i must go to my dads, not looking forward to it because i do not want to deal with spoiled fucking brats that have no idea how to respect anyone because their mother is a fucking pothead and doesn't know how to say no. then, i have my dad's bitch girlfriend coming home in a couple weeks and yeah i may miss her a little but i would gladly have dealt with missing her over seeing her and my dad practically having sex in the kitchen. no thank you. i'm fucking sick of it.
Why do i go to my dad's then? because part of me still thinks he will treat me like he actually gives a flying fuck like he did when i was ten and not like some bitter old prick.

so. thank you: google images, dad, carrina, dumbass amanda(not alice), and Amanda's dumbass little shits.

i swear i will drow them in the mud first time they piss me off.

love
your worst fucking nightmare!

PS. i'm not kidding. i'm gonna fucking SNAP
ps. i really do wish i were ten again.

i'm fucking suffocating with a smile on my face
and
a needle in my hand
and
they can't even see it
and
i don't know how to show them without screaming
and....

i just want to feel better again.